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Thursday, August 31st, 2000
8:40 am - Four days to go!!!!!
Finally, 4 days to go until school starts for the kids again. I can't tell you how relieved that makes me! Something really frustrates me though! I don't understand the purpose of 1/2 day kindergarten! Why can't they go all day too. And they wonder why kids aren't prepared when they hit 1st, 2nd, and 3rd grades etc.

I am seriously contemplating becoming a nun, celibate, maybe even a lesbian. Men as a whole just aren't worth it to me anymore! Nothing frustrates me more! One minute things can be good and I'm flying high, but the next minute I wonder what the fuck I was thinking! Everyone always tells me ".....you just haven't found the right one!" Well dammit, I am 28! I have 2 kids! What the hell is taking so long to find the right one! I know, I have wasted 7 years with a guy that doesn't know his asshole from a whole in the ground! Oh well, must keep moving on!

current mood: frustrated

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Tuesday, August 29th, 2000
7:22 pm - Blah
What a miserable day! It never really rained, just sorta spitted(is that a word) enough all day long to keep everything wet! Nothing worse than having to keep 2 kids locked in the house all day long!

Trying to decide what to do with my life! Go back to school and finished what I started or find a job and go right to making money? In the long run, if I went back to school when I am done I can make even more money! Don't know if I want to continue to be broke until that happens? I don't know, what to do, what to do? Kids go back to school a week from today so I will have lots of time on my hands......... I can't wait!!!!

current mood: confused

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Monday, August 28th, 2000
8:30 pm - Yes!
I must say this......... make up sex is the best sex! We will now see how good things stay!

current mood: hopeful

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Sunday, August 27th, 2000
10:21 pm - Awake
Well after a day of laundry and house cleaning, I fell asleep with the kids at 7:30! I am now wide awake with no hopes of sleep for quite a while!

Well, I guess nothing to do but play on the dumb ol' puter, maybe play cards or something! I don't know!

current mood: awake

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Saturday, August 26th, 2000
5:28 pm - Well Shit!!!
Okay so, my sister just found out that her husband has 8 affairs in the last five years of her marriage, 4 of those were like relationships. To top it off, they were all patients and all the encounters happened in his office. I can't believe it! Never in a million years would I suspect that this man could even have an affair let alone 8! We all kinda knew from the get go of the marriage that it wouldn't last, they are two totally different people, but never thought they would break up for this reason.

Anyway, having a blah weekend. Haven't really wrote on this for a while since I was on vacation for 2 weeks. Took a road trip with mom, stepdad, brother, neice and nephew, and my own kids! Talk about nightmare! 16 hours in a car with my mother is enough to kill me alone, but everybody else, shit, I was dead 10 minutes after getting on the freeway. Never again. I am 28 years old, and for some reason my mother feels the need to scold me like a school child! Drives me insane! Oh, but what can you do! Stuck with her forever!

Gonna go feed the kids now, maybe rent some movies! Don't even know what might be good on video right now. Oh well

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Tuesday, August 8th, 2000
7:12 pm - Feeling kinda bad!
I just know what to do! My sister is two blinks away from leaving her husband of like 12 years and I feel so bad. She has withdrawn from the family and is very hard to talk to! I wish she would just get it over with so I could have my sister back. We used to have so much fun and talk on the phone for hours! I know she is miserable and torn with the whole situation. She saw what divorce did to her and her sisters and she can't bring herself to do that to her children. I keep telling her that she is not our mother and her husband is not our father and it would be different. In some ways better because her children have got to sense the tension. After it finally happens, both of the parents will be happy people again. I don't know! I wish I knew what to say or do for her, but realistically, there is nothing that I can say or do! She has to make her own decisions. I just feel so bad because I know how miserable she is. I flat out told her I can't wait for the day it finally does happen so I can have my sister, my best friend, back again. I don't know. Life's a bitch so what can you do?

current mood: blah

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6:59 pm - Happy
I must say that I am so excited that I got hooked up with this journal thing. I have always wanted to keep a journal, but not much into writing. This is perfect, I love to type, much faster than handwriting(thanks Jen). Had the most boring day! Got in fight with the man..... so done with that whole scene. Hung out with the kids, ate fish sticks and french fries......yum! Now I am off to watch free willy for the millionth time! Anyone want my exciting life?

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